Blowing it already

Yes I am serious, I, ve been in about  15 mental hospitals in the last 5 years.  I,ve lost my friends, my husband, and my children.  The thing is I am ready to move on.  Unfortunately, while at the store today I bought some Rum.  This means I am not off to a great start.  I did see my therapist today, who by the way was not in favor of the rum.  He is a bit of a spoil sport!  I am sure if you asked him or my other friends I wouldn't drink or do any of the other 7 deadly sins.  So having little fun at all I must go on.  Considering I haven't made it through a year since 2002 without being hospitalized, this should be interesting.  Wish me luck!